Life, love, pain.

Life, love, pain
Everyday it hurts,
I ask a question
Unfortunately, I get the same answer
'Its life'
Why does it have to be LIFE?
Shouldn't there be another excuse?
Why is Life to be blamed?
Loves seems to be fading
She's no where to be found
 Pain on the other hand,
Keeps ravishing into the world
People seem to find it friendly
An easy way to deal with themselves
Wrong seems to be Right
Right is vanishing with love

No one cares they're just pretending
They tell me, no one exists
My skin is on fire
It keeps burning,
While I seek for the answers.
And when I get the answers
It feels like a sword passing through my aorta
But the more answers I get
The more questions I ask
It's life....
Why should it be? Why?...
Where are we going?
What are we striving for?
What is the 'catch'?
Or is there even one?
To live is the rarest thing in the world,
Most people.....just exist.
But in three words, life can be summed up




It goes on.

Violence

What's in life to gain?

Living in the world of bargain,
Violence all over again,
Dealing with the pain

When shall we be free?
Do I have to count to three?
Or just look at the tree
Some people just go on a shopping spree

Good for them, let them have fun
Going up and down looking all tan
My life so hot no fan
I've got nothing but a can

Living in fear isn't what I opted for
I just wish I could have made a plan before
Tranquility is like a fall
Unfortunately, I can't feel nor touch it.

People so mean and wicked
No heart, no confidence nor timid
Everything seems to be so liquid
I just wish I had a rock to lean on really solid

It's just so hard to fake a smile
But yet so easy to lie
However, I'm going to cope with it for a while,
And make sure life gives me no trial.

Just you.

Sometimes, it's just too much pressure.

It's hard, accepting yourself as a treasure,

But it's not your fault, people use you, just for their pleasure.

You sit down and weep, as your leisure.

Embracing the reality,

Once again, they had wounded your dignity,

However, you sit back and do nothing about it,

You keep quiet and just sit.

You've  got nothing to believe 

Fortunately, you take that as a relief.

No understanding, nor belief.

You go with the flow as you breathe.

Have you lost hope in humanity?

Have you been laid aside?

Have you broken down way too many times?

Have you embraced the reality?

There's nothing to fight over,

Neither nothing to sober,

All you got to do is rover

At least, you don't have to hover.

All the power you have is to remain silent,

No other choice but to be patient,

But now, there's no reason to lie.

Why lie? When you can die....

You never know what's coming.

He was scared of the dark,
But then again, who isn't?
IT'S THE DARK!
Yet he sat in it,
Terrified,
However brave,
He sat there, having no one,
No help,
Self control was his A+
Not a word came out of his mouth,
He didn't shout
Nor pout,
He just sat there,
Hoping for a miracle.
'Someone will appear',
He assured himself,
But his time was near
He didn't know,
Every second was like a blow.
His nose started bleeding,
He gets alarmed,
His hands are tied up,
So he can't clean them,
He feels useless.
'Men don't cry'
But this time, he broke that 'so called rule'
Suddenly. he looks all blue,
He keeps fighting and fighting,
And just by a second, everything turned blank.....

Have you ever felt pain?
Have you ever felt you've got nothing to gain?
Have you ever felt you've been tamed?
Deprived of being yourself?
So, you just sit there and break apart,
You feel lost,
You assure yourself, you're not seeking help at all cost,
Sometimes, you'll ask yourself, 'Is someone there?'
Can someone hear?
Does someone care?
Sometimes you'll probe,
Other times, you'll give up and sob,
This isn't new,
Now my friend, I bid you adieu,
Don't worry, It's going to be fine,
It's just a matter of time,
Stay strong and take care of yourself.

Invaluable.

Whenever I wake up,

People ask me what's up,

Once again, I give them the same answer.

They make fun of me even better.

Hiding my face again, 

They never give me the chance to bargain

But it's fine,

I've accepted I'll never get in line.

This is the society,

It has built up my anxiety.

They made me lose my dignity,

In a way I don't even understand,

I never did anything,

Yet, they brought up something.

My life is stable,

I've agreed I'm invaluable.

It's not like I have any choice,

It's not like I have anything to win.

All they see me as, is a sin.

I picked up the knife in my hand 

Wrapped in my hand like a plastic band,

I don't see any other way,

The same thing happened to me today,

This time, I've decided to try,

A different way not to cry,

Cutting each line of my vein,

Hoping I'll have something to gain,

Maybe smile,

Just for a little while,

Maybe feel happy,

Just for a second. 

The deeper it gets,

The more I can feel.

And when I feel,

The happier I turn.

When the knife is removed,

It feels like a burn.

All those nights and days I've been made fun of,

I remember them,

The deeper it gets, 

And the happier I become.

I turned on the tv,

I saw someone having a testimony,

On how her life is better after she stopped,

I think to myself,

How can this be true?

Because the only thing i feel,

Is a burn,

When the knife is removed...

Locked up in the room,

Cutting till the moon,

Blood filled up the whole place.

Tears run down my face.

I try to sleep, And this time, I could.

The next day, 

I wake up astray.

Cleaning my wounds, and I pick up my jacket.

I walk around, looking all ratchet.

Looking for a sign, that I was wrong,

I see none, but I try to be strong.

Words that don't mean nothing,

Has went a little over board,

Of course, you wouldn't know.

But here I am,

Beating myself to death,

Having no one to remember me of my birth,

But as I said, it's fine,

I know I'll never get in line.

My dear friend, 

Yesterday is history,

Tomorrow is a mystery,

Today is a gift, 

That's why it's called present

Life comes with no guarantees, 

Life comes with no warnings, 

Life comes with no second chances,

Sometimes, some questions, just don't have answers to them... 

You only live once, but if you do it right, sometimes, just once is enough. Life is beautiful, admire it, don't waste it.

Stay strong.

I'm living, I'm not alive,

Don't blame me, I have to strive,

I have to walk not to drive,

I've got myself side by side.

I'm just like a tyke,

And I can be a little pesky,

But don't worry, I try,

Sufficient enough not to pry,

New in this world,

God help me!

I'm not alone, I've got him

Some few more steps and I'll cross the sea.

It's gonna take time, 

But not matter how tough,

No matter how rough,

I'm not going to decline

Moving

Sitting besides the window,

Supported with a pillow,

Hands on the cheek like a widow.

I know it's not that bad,

But I'm just sad,

Things are just so sad.

Going away without any choice,

The only thing I hear is a voice,

Very deep and moist.

Is this my new home?

Or do I have to make it my own?

I can't turn into a bone!

There are no clouds,

The only thing I hear is music out loud.

Yeah I know, that's sad.

Trying to be strong,

But it always turns out wrong,

I never get where I belong.

But what is done is done,

I'm already gone,

All I can do is phone.

Attraction, Lust, Infatuation.

When you feel so tired,
Yet you can't sleep,
You put on music,
But you know that is not what you need.

You keep thinking,
Does he feel the same?
Are you wasting your time?
You mention his name.

Rolling on your bed,
Fantasising on things he said in your head,
Meditating on words shared.
Beating yourself on things you've heard.

He doesn't know what's happening to you,
You put on a fake smile and try to be true,
He is not inside of you,
He doesn't know what you're going through.

Yet you get home and lock yourself up,
You get inside your room and cry the hell up,
Yet he still doesn't know
The last words he told you, was no.

All you wanted was to be pampered
But his last word were all hammered.
As a teenager, this is your first time,
You're as lonely as a dime.

Everyday, the same thing happens,
You just sleep and hope the situation lightens,
Every morning you believe your days will brighten
You try to stay positive all of a sudden.

You were never this brave
Always drowned in fear like a slave
But you stood up to him,
However he made your light dim.

You were always pessimistic,
It's time to be optimistic,
You've suffered enough,
He has wasted too much of your time.

We are all humans,
Certain things we feel are all reflex,
We can't control or handle them
It's up to you to not to make things complex.

Hope for the better.

You're going though a lot,
But just give it a thought,
This isn't going to last,
Give yourself a chance and forget the past.

I know it's not easy,
But just keep yourself busy.
Give it time,
But don't commit a crime.

Just keep in mind,
You're in my head like a pool of water,
Don't act blind,
It just makes everything sadder.

Give me your hand,
Lets sit in the sand,
But promise me,
You're going to let everything be.

Giving up is death,
Lets make use of our birth.
And get through this race,
Making our lifes a better place.

I'm here for you,
I'm going to prove that, when the time is due.
You have my shoulder,
Just be a little bolder.


'Giving up is death'

Obrigada.

You've done a lot for me,
Things I never thought it'll be,
But, I'm happy,
No need to feel crappy!

What can I say my friend?
You opened the closed window,
I never thought it'll ever be opened,
But you did the impossible!

Sitting there waiting,
Being around all day wailing,
It's now over,
I don't have to sober!

I found the most amazing person,
Yana, I couldn't have been more happier,
You turned my hell to paradise,
Which was the best surprise.

It's sad we'll have to fall apart,
But our life isn't yet over,
And yes, as you said,
It's just a little break.

Sweet sixteen is over.

Well the time has come,
I finally grew old,
One more year to be bold
That is what I have to become.

Being on this earth,
Since 17 years of birth,
It hasn't been easy,
But whoever said it had to be?

Being alive is the best gift,
Despite all these lifts,
Ups and downs,
Yet I'm still standing!

Life isn't a movie,
But consisted of one,
Just keep calm,
One step at a time.

Our Friendship.

We’ve been friends for so long,

I‘m not talking about years,

I’m not talking about months,

Not even minutes, nor hours.

But at heart.

Every conversation with you,

Makes my world turn around.

I couldn’t be more grateful in life.

Just having you by my side.

Was it destiny?

I don’t know but I’m happy

We’ve been through a lot

There’ve been lots of fights.

Oh, you can mention it.

But we’re still here,

Even stronger than ever

I committed some mistakes,

Yet, you gave me a second chance.

Are you an angel that fell from the sky?

All I can do is lift my head up high.

I can sit down here and write all day,

Just waiting for our time to come.

No one actually holds the future,

All I can do is hope for a better one.

Oh my friend…..

Every joy you said to me,

Made me happy you can’t imagine how.

Words cannot explain what I have to say,

Once again, Let's sit back till our day.

I’m going to be way happier than now.

Just one second sitting with you face to face,

Will make me win the race.

Is being anxious going to make anything change?

If so, then let me be!

No need for any promises.

It doesn’t matter to me anymore.

I’ll just wait and see.

Trusting you isn’t a problem

I know you know that

Oh my friend…..

You don’t know how perfect you are

It’s so sad how you think low of yourself.

But don’t worry,

I’m here to make you aware of it,

Just calm down a bit.

Life is boring.

Oh yeah, I said it again!
Milady is in pain,
What exactly does does she gain?
Nothing, just like Cain.

Don't act tough,
Life is rough,
It gets so dim in my mentality,
But we need to face the reality.

As much as we strive,
We never get a good drive,
Don't tell me to cross the river!
While you can see me shiver.

It was never  meant to be easy
So, lets just keep being busy,
Hoping for a happy ending
Then again, it gets boring.

Serenity.

Oh, how nice it feels,
The feeling of being at peace,
The feeling of being at ease,
Warm fresh air,
Passing through my hair,
What else can I ask for?
Nothing, I can think of !
We all need one of these days
Let's clear our mind, just for today,
One day out of people.
Shouldn't cost that much,
Clear your thoughts,
There's been lots of foughts,
Calm down,
Things are bound to happen,
It's left to us to be strong,
Don't get me wrong,
We've been crying for too long,
It's time to be where we belong,
SMILE
It doesn't cost anything.

Changes.

We are falling apart.
I can feel it at heart
It doesn`t take a genius to know
You can go ahead and tell me no

I don`t blame you at all
Certain mistakes which I made,
Has made it all fade
Let`s just go sit at the parlour

Second chances I always seek,
Things are not the way they used to be
What happened my friend?
Let`s just go ahead and blame life again

Changes happen,
But this time, I didn`t see it coming.
It feels like I`m in hell
But all I can do is yell.

BE, My kingdom.

PS, I wrote this in class...I know I can do better..but, just smile :)

My heart is warm

But I mean no harm

People get me wrong

But I try to stay strong

My message has been passed.

Yet, they still laughed.

It's not my fault, 

That I had to pout

I created my own kingdom

The unknown of freedom

You don't have to get in

If you're known as a human being

To get to know me

You have to pass through BE

BE, my kingdom

The unknown of freedom

But there's one problem

You'll need an emblem.

To get in, 

You can't be a human being

You'll have to be an animal

Specifically, a mammal

With the force, 

Just like a horse.

Thank you for wasting, 

Your precious time, 

Just to read, 

My written rhyme.

Listen.

That is all I ask
It's not a difficult task
Hear me out when I talk
Just listen.

All I need is a little of your time
Just for you to hear me whine
Is that difficult to do?
Just listen.

I know I'm not perfect
And I can be a little stubborn.
But I didn't ask to be born
Just listen.


I have a lot of things to say
I just need someone today
Please do me a favour
And just listen.

Do you remember the promise you made?
To be there all the way?
Well this is your chance to prove it
So just listen.


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School Life.

       Life in the teenage world is mostly about school. There are over 1 billion teenagers, who attend school now. About one third of these teenagers are being judged and discriminated. People say, “It’s part of life”, but does that mean, that’s how it’s supposed to be? Other teenagers make life really difficult for weaker teenagers. Respect is not found in society anymore.

     The leaders we turn to seem like they don’t care. It’s left to the victims to cope with these situations. Foreigners are being judged by stereotypes. Teachers can’t do anything anymore. These victims accept this but beat themselves about it, even though it’s not their fault. Classmates also don’t help that much anymore. They make fun of other cultures and beliefs. And that’s so sad, but it’s life. It’s high time we all accept that.

Ok, so this was asked by my English teacher, to post this essay I did on here on my blog.

And my school would be using it for publication. I'm so happy :) 

Blood on my hands.

Are you happy now?
You took it away from me,
Do I really have to bow?

The only thing that makes me happy,
The only thing that makes me feel complete
Now you succeeded in making me feel crappy

The pain inside me,
Is breaking me apart
There's no one to run to
Just myself at heart.

I knew it'll come to this one day
It was just a matter of time
But I'll have to commit a crime
As a revenge someday

I'll be running after you
With a rake,
Towards the lake
Just to see you all blue

The sadness you made me feel
The happiness you took away,
The smile you made me steal
They all  came to stay.

Now it's my turn
To make you burn
Just like you did
Sorrow to you I bid
Happiness to you I forbid

Are you happy now?
You turned me into a monster
And I had to bow
As you were the rockster

But it's over my dear
Your time has come near
Too bad things had to end this way
But as I said, they all came to stay.

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Ok, so I wanted to continue, but I realised how deep what I was writiing was, so i stopped, haha.
I was very upset when i was writting it, so I just bottled it up on the poem.
I'll try and write a happy...one of these days...lol.

That feeling.

Have you ever had that feeling?

The feeling of being lost?

The feeling of despair?

The feeling of failing ?

Have you ever broken down, 

When that happens?

You beat yourself up?

You just sit there wailing?

Have you ever thought?

You're not gonna make it through?

You think everything is lost?

You sit there waiting?

Do you think things would get better?

You ask yourself, 

You give your own response, 

'No it won't 

Just quit playing.

Whether it does or not, just keep waiting.

Trust.

Tell me something, 

Is it worth it, 

To live without trusting anyone?

Does it matter?

If you don't trust anyone?

Just say anything, 

Trust is earned right?

Or I'm I just exaggerating?

Clear my sight

I'm frustrated!

Just tell something,

Just a little opinion

Tell me 

I'm confused.

Sorry.

Life is full of surprises.

You can choose to live in paradises.

I know I hurt you, 

My dear friend.

It's hard for you to admit 

But I can see it in your eyes.

I can feel it in your words.

You don't  have to tell me how you feel

It takes time for it to heal.

As time goes on,

I'm going to try and make it up to you.

But I'm happy,

You didn't have to leave.

I'm happy, 

You're still here with me.

I'm going to make use of this time, 

And try not to let you down again

I know Ive taken much of your time

By you reading this written rhyme,

All I want to say is,
I'm sorry.